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| I wanna go to BeautifulWhat do i do? Remember when you asked am i everything, nothing to you? weren't they the same thing at once upon a time. I miss you. the you that wanted me so much. the one who went out of his way to just randomly call me to say hey, i miss you. I know we agreed to take it slow, and maybe im rushing it, but that lack of emotion is getting to me. I mean, i know i mean somthing to you, i just dont know how much. are you as in love with me as i am with you ? "I dont want to be wrong, but it does feel right." I just dont know what to do. You determine my mood oh so much. Today, i went to the lake, all i did was think of you, i call you, no answer, i call again, yet again no answer. i understand you have hella shizz to do right now, but all im asking is for five seconds just for me to hear you say hey you. that's all that it would take for my mood to change for wiating and anticipation and hoplesslness to yayy, im on his mind too and it'll make me feel whole again. Maybe i'm just being pessimestic like i always am and i know you hate that, but i dont know what to do. do i keep pushing and trying really hard to win your heart completely again or do i back off, and just let you slowly come to me but if i do that would you think i didnt care. what can i do to get you back, i'll do anything, im trying to spoil you and pretty much all my money right now is going towards you and college. tell me, what can i do ? i'll do ANYTHING! anything...i broke a guy's heart just so i can be free and fly back to you. i finally went up to Marysville to say hi to you and im currently in the process of making a scrap book for you, trying to do corny things to see you smile. TELL ME. whaat can i do ?? ill do it. you name it and ill do it. cause your love, is worth it. I want that beautiful that Arie talks about. But tell me, do you or dont you want this nothing with me. tell me. soon please. | | |
| VIP. yam bamEntourage Debutant: Shannon Eligio Escort: Carl Romero Sarah Pena - Joey Bisig
Kimi Cabusao - Ryan Drexler
Angelynn Patubo - Jermaine Jose
Leah Cate - Nick Perez
Malia Makahanaloa - Matt Riche
Melia Hall - Jon Gomez
Chirstina Calata - Darian Broadhead
Stephanie - Daniel Pham Debut planning has started. shiizzz.hella stressful already. btw, if you would like to home. its april 21st. hit me up, i gotz ta RSVP. $20 per head. gahh`. ballin`. i got my dress already. =] and now im gettin` two more. cheaay boi. and i got my girl's dresses already. buttah` lips. i want some more buttah`. so its been three weeks since we've been together, me and this white boi. we're doin` iight, no complaints, content. and my new found family, pretty much what's keepin` me up. and im thankful. i talked to him the other night though. he was gone, but he's the sweetest drunk i've ever met, and somthin` tells me he's really feelin` everything that he said. and..gahh`. i really want that fairy tale romance with him, yeah, im stupid and ridiculous for actually thinking that could happen, but then i feel like it could. like, one day we'll actually meet eachother at Queenann Hill and talk there for hours just watching the sunset or sunrise or both. i really want that day to come, i really felt like he was it, when we were together, and one night fucks everything up. and this perfect fairy tale dream land, ends to shit. and two months of wondering what the fuck you want from me, kiilled me...so i gave up, but you gave up first. sorri i wasnt good enough, but i thought my heart would be good enough. corny yes, but how i truly felt. buuut that's all to shit now. gotz me a lighter shade. different indeed, i see him everyday. yes, very different indeed. also, im the expereinced one now. so im working on my patience. nothing to complain about though. im content. i know with him i could be more then content. but like he said. i shouldnt want so much in life. and so im not taking n e thing for granted and im content. yezziir. | | |
| camo on FRIDAYYuup, familia. pretty much. so big bro, yes BIG bro 6'8" Darian is chillin` right next to me on this lovely sunshyny day. He's nervous to see my twin. hah, weird how things work out eyy`. im bored, only reason pretty much why im on this shit, and if your reading this, your probably heller bored as well. but n e hooters. semester's almost over, WHAT! only like six months until graduation fool. gahh`. hella bittersweet. imma cry like a baby. yuup. with familia right next to me. gahh`. two is leaving three hourse away and one's going to Cali, hopfully i can go too. and big bro's big head is on my arm. i really want to get into Seattle Universtiy, but really, i juss want to leave this prison called home. i cant do n e thing...pretty much. to be continued... now a word from gay best friend: welll lets see her...it all started back in the day when we were both gay and today we are still what o you know?? stiilll gay both of us...she likees to be gay and hit me and push my off desks and i like too be gay and make fun of her vagina. te enad | | |
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